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Final is still going on

2012-01-05T12:02:00.001+08:00

The 1st post in 2012 = the 1st worry in 2012

Final Exam

I admit I did not actually study very hard for this time compared to previous one.

Too much of holidays can make me a lazy bump

lost contact with books and pens can be a tough time for me to regain them back

I feel stressed

I hardly feel stressed especially when exam

I used to have a strong mind to stand for the exam

Lack of confident when I was drawing my answer in the answer sheet

That is not me. I want the old me back.

When I never worry about the exam and study with peace and relax mood

What had caused me into this situation?

making me more nervous in exam, no confident.

Something is lacking in between me.

The new hostel environment makes me sick.

I got the same feeling when I had in NS

I always feel wanna cry, and able to cry easily.

The NS trauma please go away from me

I think most of the reason the trauma comes back to me because of PMS

haha~

The stupid idiot PMS makes my life even worsen

Study week

2011-12-20T08:47:00.000+08:00

I have been abondoned my blog for ages who knows why.

I realized this study week does not help me at all

I can't really concentrate to study in my home.

Too many distraction and temptation. haha~

So, when I don't study hard, I can only pray hard.

Rolling in the deep

2011-11-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

There's a fire starting in my heart

What the stupid thing in this world???

As the student of IPBA, I am not allowed to use common room at night

I am not allowed to use the common room with one of my teammate who happened to be a guy

Because a boy and a girl is not supposed to stay alone indoor

Hello, the head of warden,

We are just discussing our asgmt

Somemore my teammate is a married man, u expect what will we do under the bright lights?

U thought both of us can do something in there which is across the law of IPG?

U are too free and nothing to do as you can always carry the binocular and keep watching the common room

So that when both of us were doing work in the common room you can spot us immediately

I did paid for the hostel and you are depriving my rights to use the hostel’s facilities

Gosh, you thought I am staying in the hostel for free?

Bear in mind, I deserve to get the service for what I have paid.

If not, please don’t cut my allowance for hostel

Please don’t take RM420 from me every semester.

Fed up! Fed up! And FED UP!

Here's a lovely suggestion to you:

Don’t give any asgmts to ur students so that there is no need and no excuses for us to use your beloved common room!

And you don’t have to worry there is something wrong might happen in the common room

Just shut the common room forever la~

As I don't see the usage of the existence of a common room.

You Are The Apple Of My Eye

2011-11-17T14:39:00.002+08:00

Finally, I watched this best selling movie with Emily.

The most happiest part is we only spent RM9 on the ticket.

Each of us just paid for RM4.50 for the 5 STARS movie.

It's Awesome!

I found that most of my classmates not even know about this movie

probably this is a Taiwanese movie.

But suprisingly, there were a few Malays in the cinema with us.

The film is a gentle reflection of popular author Giddens' teenage years in high school

it is based on a novel, “You Are the Apple of My Eyes” tells the story of five guys, including Giddens, who strived to win over the heart of classmate Shen Chih Yi

Maybe in an alternate universe, we will be together

I love this quote which Giddens said to Shen Chia Yi years after their last encounter ended in unfortunate misunderstandings.

There are times that we may have allowed fate to slip through our fingertips

♥ Life Is An Endless Battle ♥

Not deserving me

2011-11-05T15:54:00.002+08:00

I'm selfish,
impatient and a little insecure,
I make mistakes,
I am out of control and at times hard to handle,
but if you can't handle me at my worse,
then you sure don't deserve me at my best.

Sometimes we might be hard to handle but if you can't handle someone at their worse than you don't deserve them at their best.

Nobody is perfect and people make mistakes.

People are selfish and impatient.

There hard to handle and sometimes you might want to give up on them but you shouldn't.

That when they need you the most.

Don't give up on someone just because there upset, sad, selfish and impatient, they might need you the most at the time.

And if you cant handle someone when they are at their worse than you definitely don't deserve them at their best.

Everyone has good and bad times so if you really want to be with the person deal with the bad and try to get to the good.

Find my way

2011-11-02T11:14:00.000+08:00

I’m not sure if I’m happy or completely lost right now.

Definitely a little lost, but aren’t we all?

I have no idea what I’m doing in my life,

Or where Im going.

And I think Im okay with that right now.

For the first time in a while, I noticed that Ive changed.

Maybe for the best, maybe not.

But does it really matter?

When we change, we can never go back.

I'm sorry, but from now on I’m going to have to keep everything to myself.
I've always been the nice girl,

it's time I start going after what I want.

For him

2011-10-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying
Is the person who made you cry?

For him,

I'd smile when he's happy,

Comfort him when he's sad,

Try to be the perfect girl and calm him when he's mad.

Hold his hand to make him strong

And say he's right when I know that he's wrong.

Sometimes I really wonder how stupid it would seem to him.

How I sit here with my eyes never leaving the screen of my phone,

Waiting for his new text.

Or refreshing the screen until it says he's online.

Or how when I miss him I read the things he told me

Months and months ago.

I really wonder what he would say if he knew he meant that much to me

Stand straight when u're alone

2011-10-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

Don't depend too much on anyone in this world because even your own shadow leaves you when you are in darkness?

It's a bit cynical but it has some truth.

The fact is you are born alone and you die alone

But in the journey of life,

you have to trust people and build meaningful relationships with them.

If you are lucky, you may find a special someone who you can really depend on and open up with, then you'll feel so much lighter and happier because the burden of all your secrets is less.

Although, you alone will sometimes have to fight through certain situations- but that's life.

And that's in this world, remember you always have God at your side.

Familiar of the dandelion?

I'm like that

the wind blows hard on me, takes me, and leaves me to where I die..

but that doesn't end there.

Because from where I have died is exactly where I have grown.

The one and important things is: Dandelion travels alone

Driving

2011-10-24T01:31:00.001+08:00

Driving is a spectacular form of amnesia. Everything is to be discovered, everything to be obliterated.

Finally, I got the chance to drive today without inspection of my Dad.

I drove to Pizza Hut with my 2 brothers.

They were quite nervous and feel speechless when sitting in my car

Everyone knows my reckless driving skill

My mum will not ever sit in the car when the driver is me

She claims she will have a heart attack when she sees me driving

My brothers were also reluctant to sit in the car where I happened to be the driver

Only Benny, Terry and Willy are so brave that they were willing to have a try on me

Feel glad that they gave me chances

Hoping there are more chances that my parents are willing to let me drive alone without them

I should have overcome my fear and forgot about the accident

Thank God, the trauma had gone

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2011-10-23T00:53:00.003+08:00

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1st day of holiday

2011-10-22T21:48:00.003+08:00

I get up very late today

Have a fight with my mum because she could be very irritating sometimes

End up I did nothing today

I cried a lot and can't concentrate to do my asgmts

Hungry and no mood

I had wasted a precious day.

=(

Fallen sick

2011-10-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

I have officially completed my mid-term exam

I think I really spend some time to read and study but the outcomes proved that I was wrong

Quite disappointed

Anyway, it is not the end of the world

I am still alive, still able to survive from the stressful month.

Yet, I still have another stressful month to go.

Then it will comes my 1 month’s study leave.

That’s cool, I wonder I will end up not study anything in the holiday.

There are so many pending works waiting for me

Which one should I start doing first?

There is no point for me to keep emo or pulling a long face becoz of these works.

Shud have gathered up all my energy to start doing these b4 procrastination overcomes me.

Suddenly, I just fall sick and suffered insomnia yesterday night

I was so worried that I couldn’t sleep well which may screwed my Kenegaraan test next morning.

I am having sore throat which I dunno how it happened on me.

Thank God, it didn’t happen on Monday.

I so hate the feeling of being sick and have to prescribe on medicine.

I hate to swallow pills the most

Can it cures without me taking any medical approach?

Guess God will heal me soon. =)

Time constaint

2011-10-18T08:44:00.003+08:00

Tmr will be the last mid-term exam of my Semester 2.

there will be a so called 1 week Deepavali Holiday on the coming week

I dun think that will be a holiday for me

I cant even rest when it is holiday

there are arnd 6 asgmts to due when the sch reopen

How am I gonna squeeze time for it?

I wish to throw off all my burden and all my pending works

My mind is always fulled of stuffs wic i have not done

Only when the 25 Nov comes, I will have a ease of mind.

Truthfully, I dun like the fact that I m going to UPM next year

I hate to adapt myself to a new environment again

I just like how the way I survive in IPBA

from reluctant on the beginning and now I finally accept how it is.

But I am gonna leave soon.

Leave 1 month for me to stay at tis place.

Seriously, I dun really anticipate my Uni life juz like others do.

I admit I am weird

that's who I am

Exam week

2011-10-13T14:04:00.002+08:00

The two weeks b4 deepavali holiday is fulled with examinations in my life

it's stressful!!!

stress stress stress

Cnt figure out things well and properly

evytg is just out of my control

the plan to go bck to BP was forced to cancel becoz of exams....

having exam in the middle of the afternoon...

it ruined my plan

wasted my bus ticket

I just feel speechless

truly speechless

speechless indeed

Weekend without YOU

2011-10-01T14:02:00.001+08:00

A boring weekend is coming to me

Thought of going out with somebody but somehow plan was ruined

I am truly envy of those who have excuses to go out in the weekend

But I can’t really find a reason for me to go out, alone.

I feel suffocated when I stay in the room

Surfing the net over and over again

Watching drama over and over again

I need a breath of fresh air.

But I just can’t helped, I don’t have any excuses to persuade myself to step out of IPBA

Since when I am categorized as one of them

Since when that I found out there is no point for me to go out

When someone were still in Malaysia, I have various of excuses and objectives to go out during weekend

I missed the time when both of us always looking forward for the weekend to come so that at least we could meet once or twice a week

To me, weekend was a time for me to relax and enjoy after studying for 5 days

I can always put aside my asgmts and homework to go out with him

As long as I could finish my task, I don’t mind to stay up late.

Currently, look, how pathetic am I…

Though I have finished most of my works, but I still unable to find a reason for me to go out

Weekend is same as Weekdays since u left KL

The boring weekend of mine is still going to be continued until I graduate.

Three years to go, my dear.

Imagine there are 150++ weekends that I have to spend alone in a small room

Cracking my head to only think for the reason to go out but end up effortless

There will be no more reason for me ever.

Only if, when the time you come back from the foreign land.

What a stressful life

2011-09-30T17:59:00.000+08:00

When u think u r the only one who stress,

There are still thousands more ppl tat are more stressful than u

This is life.

What we called a stressful life

Life isn’t complete if it is not stressful

Don’t expect others to sympathize u

The person who let stress to master u is a failure

Nobody is going to show sympathetic feeling to a failure

Please wake up and life still have to go on

Turn to God when u r weak as He is the giver of strength

I have to stop

Stop imagining things happen around me

If not,

I am going to be the next “insane” person.

When the love one is not beside u, u got to be strong

Emo + Sad

2011-09-28T17:26:00.002+08:00

I slept very early last night..

most probably slept at 9pm.

I have no mood to do my asgmts and tutorial

No mood to do anytg else

I dunno I feel down for what reason

I wish there will be raining my heart

so it can wash away all my troubles and worries

Since when I dunno how to pass the problems to God

I know I m worried too much

But i feel no strength as many thngs had happened around me

I lost my spectacles in Auditorium

Cnt find it back anymore.

This is the 2nd time i lost my specs in IPBA

This incident had added my emoness to the max

feel bad to spend extra money for it

I feel bad also as i cnt go back to fix it tis week as there is a class replacement

I have much which I need to do it badly in my hometown but i just cnt go back due to classes

All these things came around in my mind and I just dunno how to stop thinking of these lame shits.

emo

emo

emo

It's all because of me, myself. =(

2nd sem 1st review

2011-09-26T11:14:00.002+08:00

The first 3 weeks in IPBA is really tiring with heaps and heaps of assignments and tutorial.

I still have 3 more weeks to suffer

No chance to go back as there are loads of replacement class on Saturday.

Hope I can stand and overcome the homesick.

Long distance

2011-09-03T11:54:00.002+08:00

I have to go thru long-distance relationship in my life

I am forced to.

no matter love or friendship or family kinship

what a long long distance

KL - BP

KL - Penang

KL - Kedah

KL - Singapore

KL - India

KL - Australia

KL - New Zealand

I hate this

feel tired to maintain it

This is not the life I want

but, who can decide their life?

just take it.

take it all.

When patriots become heroes

2011-08-25T15:58:00.005+08:00

Echen is currently backed from Thailand.

We have waited her for so long to watch

Movie on Wednesday is always the cost-effective one.

As usual

small screen, chair without holder, and bad image effect are given by Cinema.

Indeed

You get what you pay for.

Well, we dun mind...

it's a so so movie...

but watched at the cost of RM5 still considered worth la...

When Flo and Echen go for studies

there will be no more people acc me to watch movie ady.

there will be no more people acc me to sing k

there will be no more people acc me to limteh...

wat a sad life...

>__________<

U surely will be getting new frens in ur new environment

but i m the one still alone

Its okay

I gonna be used to it as I did go thru with tat kind of life.

It's not a nightmare

Lonely is a kind of peace to me.

I heart u all, my friends. =)

Sunshine after TWO weeks of fatigue

2011-08-23T21:06:00.011+08:00

Basically, I will start to write this post is because of ...... HER ......

Hereby to present you the most "crab" girl, Miss Florence Tan.

Echen, Florence and I have been busy for 2 weeks and worked like there is no tomorrow for the Song Yang YF's board.

In the end, we managed to finish it on time. Thank God =)

Echen being the "irresponsible" one flew to Thai and left the odd jobs to us.

Well, we don't mind. U enjoy as much as U can in ChiangMai.

We have another helper, Bobby Tan.

Credits to him for his kind help of paper cutting and light fixing.

I do appreciate. Only me. haha.

**the overall view of our efforts**

**the side view**

After finished fixing the L.E.D, we went to Sushi Mentai for the so called celebration.

Catched a super nice movie named "Rise Of The Planet Of The Apes".

Flo insisted me to upload these photos

purposely want to show to Echen.

and remind her that...

We go celebrate without her. XD

IDK

2011-04-16T16:05:00.001+08:00

I dunno why i begin to post a new post...

Mayb i m to lazy to do my homework instead of re-blogging here

well, i juz realised my blog had been a mess...

so... i retidy it...

now it looks better....

** wasting my time only **

>___________<

Pulao Pangkor Camping

2009-10-13T10:43:00.005+08:00

Currently backed from Pulau Pangkor

This is the 1st time I enjoyed the camping

Although it was hard and tiring

but I had fun at there

Water confident
kayak-ing
snorkelling
road trekking
swimming
volley ball
pocho-pocho
chicken dance
cooking contest on the beach

I tried to enjoy myself

Really

Its never make my life hard

Try to accept whatever I face

I'll find it

it is as easy as their thought

On the bus, headed to Pulao Pangkor

On the ferry

My temporary home, tent.

The sky there is BLUE

Sea joint sky, sky joint sea

Kayak and the sea

Nice sea-side

after the camping

I had a serious suan tong on my back

haiz...

3 tough days to go

I want to go back for a rest

Busy week

2009-10-05T11:00:00.002+08:00

Taken with the most shy and handsome guy in my class.

Yesterday

We celebrated Nateesha's bday at common room block 6

secret recipe cake and kfc drumstick for the supper

OMG~

midnight 1.00am supper

tired + sleepy + tired

I like the cross... PJ State Methodist Church...

I went to YF last Saturday

emm...

dunno how to express the feeling...

but the time with God is nice

......

This week will be the most busy week

Monday: 5.30 pm have a dinner with senoirs, 9.00pm have rehersal of performance for the celebration of mooncake festival
Tueday: Night, celebration of the mooncake festival... Performance
Wednesday: 2.30pm got recreational sports, assignments to do,
Thursday: asgmt, asgmt, asgmt... preparation to Pulau Pangkor
Friday: Camping at stupid Pulao Pangkor
Saturday: Camping in bloody fucking Pulau Pangkor
Sunday: still camping at Bloody shitty Pulau Pangkor

I HATE CAMPING

I HATE KAYAK-ING

I HATE JUNGLE TREKKING

30/9 & 1/10

2009-10-01T17:24:00.003+08:00

Yesterday,

I m going out with Niwa

headed to Sogo

and BSN to take my atm card.

The "head" of the KL tower. taken at lrt station.

Yesterday morning,

It was raining heavily

But I did not take a umbrella with me

I got wet after all...

I like the rain view in IPBA... JUST NICE...

The high building was so hazy, unclear when there is a rain. I like the feeling on it.

Today,

The alowance had bank in to our account.

RM430...

Can buy shirt for myself ady

But...

There are so many assignmentssss...

damn much stupid fucking assingments...

make me really no time for outing

Seriously...

that's not i don't want to go out with my lovely friends....

however,

I really could not make it.

A thousans-Million of sorry to beloved Echen.

I really really really doesn't meant it

Despite

It's ok what u want to think

what u want to do

Fortunately

tomorrow no kuliah

got plenty of free time

A.S.S.I.G.N.M.E.N.T.S T.I.M.E

ASGMT

2009-09-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

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New layout

2009-09-22T17:36:00.003+08:00

The new layouuuttt~

spend 1 afternoon to do this

its really make me sux

wasted my time...

Looking forward for tomorrow

hope that

really can go for a 1-day-trip in Melaka

I miss Melaka

Laz night

2009-09-17T21:02:00.004+08:00

At AMJAL RESTAURANT

they eat so much

Azham... one plate of rice and kuey tiow + mee hoon...

Amirul, 2 bun, kuey tiow + mee hoon, a plate of rice

DAHSYAT-NYE~~

This is the Last night...

just now when i was going out with Julia and Izati

to search for dinner...

the sky is grey...

just like my day at IPBA

my tears juz cnt control when i started to make a wrong decision

I m so sorry...

I hearts U...

Two dayz

2009-09-16T07:57:00.002+08:00

I'll always find my way back home

2 days to go...

kuliah so sienzzz...

make me wanna fall asleep ady...

hope that...

Friday no class...

I miss everything~

2009-09-14T09:51:00.004+08:00

One week of holiday

actually is not enough for me

I seriously hope that

I won't be back to IPBA anymore

4 DAYS to go...

Bukit Jalil...

troublesome**

I miss my friends...

MBO...

* hahas *

The Days at Subang Jaya

2009-09-07T21:43:00.004+08:00

It is the second and the third time i went to Subang Jaya alone to meet him

I walked to LRT station alone

rushed like the hell to KL Sentral

I hate to wait the KTM

luckily, i m always on the time.

Things we do the first day (5 Sep 09)

Ate at Carrefour, my favorite pan mee

observed what printer should I buy

Went to Subang Parade

clothes testing n shoe testing

walked until his leg swollen, but i m used to it ady [so sorry for him]

Mcdnold-ing

MPH for collins cobuilds

rush like the hell to KL Sentral oso

KTM is so... packed... packed like an ikan bilis?

waiting for the mc value dinner

tarpau mcd and went back to shitty hostel

Second day (6 Sep 09)

did the same thing...

ate at carrefour but the rice is not nice

observing the printer again

went to Subang Parade and bought a pair of nike shoes

took money from Maybank

a hp printer is bought

the printer is carried by him throughout the journey from Selangor to Wilayah Persekuatuan [ thanks ]

the ktm yet is damn packed.

Mcd-ing

Took taxi from KL Sentral to UM... RM13... Mahal sial...

back again to my bloody hostel

* correct my stupid LDS assignment ady...

* waste my time....

* cry like the hell as i wanna go back home...

SAT =]

2009-08-30T01:31:00.003+08:00

I hanged out with him today...

watched "The proposal"

hanging around in Parkson

ate MCD

went to church

and also

I hanged out with beloved Echen and Flo

went to church

bible questioning

watched "Ghost of girlfriends past" (nice movie although it really 18sg)

ate MCD again~

blah blah blah...

It's time to go back to IPBA...

I not yet enjoy my holidays

so sad...

gonna leave my friends

I even haven't finish my assignments and homework........

* mindless *

HATE IT

2009-08-28T01:09:00.004+08:00

I HATE HOMEWORK

I HATE ASSIGNMENTS

..............................................

HOW SHOULD I DO THE NEXT STEP???

WAIT FOR THE TIME

U COME BACK

WAIT-ING...

Teacher Training *

2009-08-26T00:50:00.006+08:00

I got into teacher training

It's second intake

Rush to KL on the last minute

At last,

I no need to study form 6 anymore

but....

I miss my form 6 life in HS

although the 4pm system make all of us disgust

but i miss all the friends there

I had a one-month-happy-form-six-life there

with all the ex-tigs girls

hehehe...

The life to be a teacher is not easy as i thought

18 assignments in the 1st sem is waiting for me to complete it

English course is not an easy subject to learn on and teach

btw

my English is super duper lousy

I Really faces lotsa obstacles and hardships

I hope I can cope with the studies and catch up faster as I had missed the 1st month lesson

Btw,

the hostel is really disgusting!!!

Messy

Dirty

unclean

unhygenic

OMG...

I dunno how to use the words to describe the condition of that bloody shitty hostel.

So far so good,

I was having gathering with frens last saturday

went to "zijilai" for steamboat and so called bbq

have fun at Padang Bandar Penggaram

Have a date with chia xin and flo at woodland on Sunday evening

I like the ice desserts there

NICE~

Stayed at home to do the assignments and homework on Monday

Then,

I went to Summit and Square One with Flo on Tuesday

Before that,

had breakfast with wei cheng and yi heng

hehe

I really well-spent my holidays

I m looking forward for the gathering with my lovely friends.

Hey guys,

I miss you all very much~

* HOPELESS

2009-06-29T17:18:00.003+08:00

I didnt get into Teacher training

What a big blow to my parents

They angry with me for not doing well during the interview

That's not something i could control

I m down also

No school for me now

Can't study sastera stream

Can't transfer school

The best way is

Go to work

Both of my parents won't let me continue my studies

They hate to waste money on me

I m useless to them

I admit

I m a girl also

It's not worth that they spend money on me

That's their narrow minded

SPEECHLESS with them

I will always be in your heart♥

2009-06-23T23:41:00.002+08:00

Every time I look into your eyes

I see forever

I dont know why

But every time we touch

I feel alive

There is nothing like it

People say that love cant be that strong

You might just believe it

We can show you,

we can prove them wrong

Listen to my heart beat for you

Telling you that I adore you

If you wanna know how much I feel inside

Listen to my heart come closer

Let me wrap my arms around you

There's nothing I can do

I'm so in love with you

Just listen to my heart

All my love

You really need to know that you're mine

I'm spending the lifetime

My whole life

There's nothing gonna stop us cause we are

A once in a lifetime

People say that love cant be that strong

You might just believe it

We can show you,

we can prove them wrong

I cant tell you what our future holds

But as long as we were in love

We were in life

Busy schoolling

2009-06-17T21:22:00.003+08:00

I slept at 5.00am something in the morning today

Chia xin woke me up at 12pm

she said wanna go Pesta SMKDOJ ask about the sch tranferring

After that, have our lunch at MCD

Then go to TIGS

wait for Puan Rosnah to ask about our stream changing letter

But she was not around at that time

Went to HS to search for Miss Wong

But she was busy at that time

Went back TIGS for Puan Rosnah again

Luckily she was there,

we had sure that the stupid pengetua had sent our letter to JPN

a thread of hope... haha...

Went to HS again to seek for Miss Wong's consults

She is a nice teacher.

After I reached home, I m exhausted

Walked to 3 school a day...

COOL for 2 of us

haha.

We straight away told the teachers we were ponteng

Not going to school because of their bullshit management!

But I will go to school at Thursday

However, I m not sure I will be a good student as I will go back at 2.00pm.

School had reopen again,

seems like nothing with me

Kept ponteng everyday

hahas.

I have to decrease the rate of contact between me and HIM

haha

no sms

no calls

no outings

haha

be a good girl stay at home

Online a whole night utill the next morning.

* Monday

2009-06-01T22:50:00.009+08:00

31 MAY 2009

Finally, I bought my new hp Nokia 7210 supernova at Summit yesterday.

It cost me RM358

Ok la, I think

Bcoz I dun have hp to use recently.

1 of June is Winson's birthday

Yesterday is the first time I go to De'Ori 933 sing k with Winson's friends

but actually i m not singing

I just go to enrich my experience

hehe

the room quite small actually

but the sound system is good

Ben and me tried very hard to find a cake for Winson at the time of 11.00pm ++

His bro said this time if wan buy cake can go toilet buy ady

hahahaha!!

I laughed until my stomach burst

Like his joke very very much

Yea~ That time really must go to toilet make a "freshy cake" for him better

hehe... kekex... =P

1 JUNE 2009

Today, I go to Ben house help him to do some church's stuff

Regarding the church camp on 6-8 June 2009

A lot of documents need to type and really can't finish by himself

So I help him to do some

But I can't help much.

I did a very big mistake today

I slapped him...

I accidentally gave him a big slap

I really don't meant to hurt him

But I put too much energy on my hand

Can't control my hand

Felt so sorry to him

He told me even his mum never slap him but I had did that to him

I m very guilty

Really guilty...

I felt very compunction of my mistake

and I cried right after that

hehe...

SORRY...

I m not intentionally to slap you

SORRY...

Take a short break

After finished his work

Night,

Took my pay at Kelisa Tuition Centre

Just RM583.33 only

quite a little

after that, go shopping alone at BP Mall

intends to buy clothes but end up with nothing

Then go to jalan "greedy eat street" eat supper.

Ben asked me whether can go out with him at 10pm++

but my dad doesn't allowed me to go out

Ends up with I have to stay at home blogging at here ya~

I Like my Monday...

* Saturday

2009-05-31T12:38:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was my dad's birthday

Happy birthday to you~

Maybe Im not sincere but I wish u in my heart

^-^

30 MAY 2009

went to bus company to settle the bus for church camp
eat lunch with ben at "shi liu yuan"
took the neck stripes from suppliers at Perdana ocean restaurant
hanging around at Summit with Flo
attend youth fellowship
eat supper with Ben at KFC
Back to sleep at 12.15am++

Flo and me saw a pair of shoes that we really like it

but we did not buy it coz no size or flo's leg

but i will be buy it next time

got my size

haha.

Wanna buy a new hp for myself as extra phone

Nokia 7210 supernova

I like it because it just nice and cheap

it cost only RM350++

it contains simple function but just nice to me

Today...

stay boring at home

no movies and no online

the weather is soooo... HOT!!

Ponteng to BP MALL

2009-05-26T23:16:00.002+08:00

YEA~ ponteng again

Today, I was the firs person who reached my class
Waiting my friends there alone...
boring... nothing to do..
The time is passing like snail until I thought all my friends had late.
Actually they were not

After we studied for 4 periods of sleepy chemistry
we decided ponteng to bp mall in the rain
Thanked to Khai chee mum who fetched us to bp mall
we had our breakfast at old town.
After that, we walked here and there with no aim where we want to go
Then waiting for BEN to watch Slumdog Millionaire
Before that,
Echen had a big quarrel with the staffs of BIG cinema
haha...
Really impressed her powerful voice and her braveness
yea~ next time don't go to that SH*T place ady
their service is so bad and even worst!

After the show, i went back and slept for 2 hours before going Maths tuition

My G705 had been hospitalised
New hp oso like tis
the LCD screen suddenly black out
WThe*k
no phone for me now~
sienz ==

I don't wish I left the bad impression in her eyes
The way she judges me,
thinks about me,
any comments about me,
feelings towards me...
She reminds me to behave myself
I will behave myself and as he did so
From now onwards,
We will behave ourselves.

Hanging out at Square one

2009-05-14T12:04:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, 13th of May was my first day going back to school
I had suffered insomia until 3.00am ++
I dunno the reason that I could'nt sleep well
I keep thinking about the reason of school transfering
keep thinking if i can't transfer school
If i can't get into matric 2nd batch
If i can't get into teacher training
I will suffered alone at that shit school
WTF!!

I go to school just wanted to take the form to transfer school
we tried to playing truancy after recess
member who ponteng:
- Kylie - Khai Chee -Florence - Chia Xin - Etian - Me
we thinked lotsa ways
finally,
we went out the school thru the backdoor
as the guard was sleeping inside the guardhouse
we ran faster up the slope
haha
sweating whole our body...
it was very very very hot!
We were success
haha!
how brave we are...

After that
Flo went back to my house for bathe
Etian, Flo and me went to square one together
I was so happy that i could go out from the house finally
Yea~~
I could only eat fish burger at mcdonald
Miss Mcdonald so much
haha
Then we watched a show, Paul Blart Mall Cop
At the begining,
the show is quite bored...
Towards the ending of the show
it's quite nice
It's worth if we spent only RM5 to watch that
but it is not worth if we spend RM9
haha
it's the difference.
After the show,
We go to the shirts and clothes departments
we tried lotsa of clothes
haha
window shopping is fun
we just kept trying and trying
and there was no sales girl noticed us
hehe
I had a liking for a black gown
i think it is classified as gown la
i like it very much
it cost only RM60
maybe it was too sexy for me
if i buy it i also dunno when i can wear that gown
After window shopping,
we go to Witchery Ider hi tea
eat our favourite boiled dumplings
We gained the dumplings for free
because the stupid kind cashier forgot to count our dumplings
she just counted the drinks.
haha
We saved RM10.50
we continue hanging around in square one with our beautiful mood
yae~~
maybe god is going to help us...
whom are unlucky to get matrik or JPA and have to stay at BP study form 6
only our group is so so so so so so so unfortunate...
We hanging around at Thai street
etian found a slipper that she likes...
it's cost RM25
we helped her to bargain with the seller
finally we can get the shoes at RM18.
But we did'nt buy it as we will go back to see that shoes again at this Saturday

At night,
I continue hanging out with Ben and his brother
we watched "uninvited"
OMG~
i scared the killing scenes as i m forbia with knife...
then Ben was kept frightening me...
i was trembling in the cinema
and it was cold because outside was raining heavily...

I dun dare to sleep at the night
keep finding friends to accompany me...
because the scenes of "uninvited" keep appeared in my mind
Somebody still cheating me the show is not horror and terror
I m scared to watch horror movies...
bcuz i m a timid person
haha~

I does'nt go to school today
playing truancy again
haha
busy settle the school transfering form

I had a good day with my friends yesterday
i was joyful~
hehe
I m anticipating the coming of this Saturday to hang out with my beloved friends

School reopens

2009-05-11T12:42:00.003+08:00

School reopen for form 6 students
Im not going to school today and tomorrow
I m having chicken pox's mc...
hehehe ^-^
stay at home doing nothing
but i could sleep more...

finally,
he was free on yesterday night
he accompanied me chat for almost 4 hours
hehe ^^
is this an atonement for me??
i had knew tat he will busy at my birthday
i had knew he had no times for me
but i don't care
i really don't care...
i even don't mind
he might be busy on god's matters labor
may god bless us...

Now,
i m going to study at form 6
i want transfer to HS
hope that my mum will help on it
at the same time i m waiting for matric and maktab
Chien Chong said must pray hard
pray very very very very hard
bcoz he really prayed a lot for his JPA
and finally he got it
the prayers work at last
then i will pray a lot to my LORD
i really don't wish to stay alone at Batu Pahat
Hope my prayer come true ya

10th Monthsary

2009-05-08T17:49:00.004+08:00

Today
10th Monthsary
hehe...
nothing special
as i m having chicken pox
that is impossible that i can go MUET tuition with him and echen
wanna go out desperately
either with my beloved friends or him...
i m dreadful to stay alone at home and doing nothing
nothing i can do except online blindly

Flo called me in the afternoon
we talked a short while
she said she will call me back at 3.30pm
but she seems dissappear untill now
waiting a person again...
haiz...

I want go out with friends tomorrow...
but look at my faces is full of poxes mark
flo said if i dare to go out then she will ask me join together
but the question is...
how can i go out with this awful look??
thanks god...

the plan tonight is
stay at home and waiting the person
who i had wait for so many times...
watch "my queen" alone again...

Chicken pox-ing

2009-05-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

I m gonna blog here in English to improve my broken English
yahaha~~
So...
Im getting chicken pox since 1st of May
Im been teasing by flo tat i never got such disease at my young times
tats not my fault k...
i m suffered alot on those poxes
i will scratch those poxes when i m very itchy
especially during the nite time
i almost cant sleep at the previous night
well...
the next night i fall asleep very fast and doesnt care about the itchiness as i m so tired and exhausted for the previous scratching freak.
there is nothing i can eat when i hungry
eggs, chickens, cucumber, fried foods, sotongs, seafoods, biscuits, cakes.... etc
i can only feed with PORKS...
plain porridge with porks...
7 days a week eat the same menu of 3 meals
imagine that i had fed up with evryday's meals.
I miss Mcdonald and pearl milk tea damn much.
i hope my chicken pox can be recover soon...
then i would not be so suffer anymore...

He had been lost in my msg inbox for a long time
my conversation with him had been lesser and lesser from a day to day
he is busy with church and his own stuff
dun have much time left to accompany me
hence i try my best not to bother him
thats the only way i can do
I find things to do when i was suffered with my poxes
i watch a lot of movies and drama to fill up the time
"Crayon Sinchan" and "My Queen" had acc me for tis lonely week
sometimes... i really boring enough and want to shout at him that i m very very very lonely
i felt i m ALONE
i try to missed call him...
i dun even dare to send him a msg to tell him tat i m missing u right now bcuz i knw he was busy
he had no time to bother me
izit tat i wan??
Nope!!
pls spare me some times to hear my feelings
yup...
i could onli wait till midnight when u reached home
u gave me a short call and told me tat u had been tired for a whole day
well...
i wait for almost half a day, 12 hours++
at last u give me the answer that i doesnt want
my hp's screen does not lighthen up for hours today
Im waiting for you... waiting for you...